The athiest within a theist

The author has tried to put forward all possible arguments and did not come to any conclusion. The beliefs of author have not been disclosed. Article does not support atheism either. It is left to the reader what conclusion he wants to come to

No , No, No exclaimed my mother. If we don't perform the daily rituals(god related: puja, naivedya and all rituals performed during festivals), god wont spare us. We must perform the rites.
I was brought up a in an (over)religious family. So never thought about the god, but blindly followed the beliefs(actually culture). God comes to help in need of people doing punya(pious deeds) and punish those who do paap(wrong doing) is the notion followed in all religions. My conscience too never allowed me to contrast this belief. But does god punish if you don't worship too? That question left me confounded and unanswered. I had hell lot of questions storming in mind with no clues.
Doubt 1: Does god exists?does he protect good?
->God punishes those doing paap and protects those doing punya. But if you take a survey, this theory of paap and punya will definitely fail. Its works only in hindi movies where the villain always get punished and hero wins. Real life works on the principles of survival of fittest and not punya and paap, and no shaktimaan comes to save the poor and weak.
->If god does not/cannot punish paapi(bad) people, will he punish just because you don't worship him?
If you go to the forest in africa or even the kond tribe in niyamgiri hills in orissa who worship nature, hills and the forest.Will god punish them because they dont worship him? Or what if i was born in that tribe? would god have punished me because of my ignorance of his existence?
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But there are another doubts which kill the atheist within me.
1> River saraswati one of the revered rivers after ganga and yamuna was unknown for centuries. But excavations in the places as defined in our holy books showed that the river did exists during so and so period. How can i deny the thing defined in our holy book which our science too reinforces? If i believe this fact from the holy book, how can i deny the other stories in my holy book?
2>Ram setu(bridge), built by lord Rama between india and sri lanka is well known in our mythology. NASA satellite images too showed that some kind of bridge did exist. So if i believe this fact, it makes me believe it was built by rama only and therefore god(rama) did exist!
3>Hinduism beieved in Navagraha(9 planets)from centuries, but we had 10 planets (including pluto) according to our science. All of a sudden in 2007 scientists declared pluto not as a planet. How did our ancestors know that there are only nine planets thousands of years back when there was no telescope or science, whereas our science proved it only 3 years back??
Are all these coincidences between the scriptures(science fiction novels??) written by ancestors thousands of years back and the present day science? or were these ancestors geniuses who wanted to pass this knowledge to future generations and wrapped this knowledge with idea of religion?

The lasting impression Part 3: Bangalored

This is one of the posts in my "Lasting Impressions" series where i write some unusual things that happen to me or which i notice in everyday life and unknowingly happen to make lasting impressions on my mind.

When i had come to bangalore i always used to say as the city grows bigger humanity become rare.
This is one of the unexpected events that happened to me that changed my perception.
I had gone to BigBazar Jayanagar on bike after coming from office to buy some household goods.
The next day morning i was amazed to see that the wallet in my jacket was missing.
Ohh god! so many things missing! my driving licence , PAN Card, 2 ATM cards and some amount.
Making new driving licence and PAN would have been a big problem.
ATM cards anyway i blocked temporarily, instead of blocking permanently. I do not know
whether it was careless-ness from my side or the pocket of my pant was loose.
There were only 2 options either the wallet was stolen or it had fallen off. In either case the chances of
getting the lost wallet were almost nil. I went to office but could not concentrate and came back home to
search for it once again. Suddenly the bell rang, a guy was holding some licence and called my name.
I was stunned, he looked at my photo in licence and then took out a plastic cover from his bag. My wallet,
cards and money everything intact. I had least expected that people will come searching for me to return
my wallet that had fallen on the main road. The worst thing was they got my address from the bike insurance
that i had in the wallet and the address on it was misprinted as 28th main intsead of 29th main. They found
my home inspite of the wrong address. Even i would have said f**off in such case and left, but they dint give up. Hats off to such rare breed which still exists today, and leave a lasting impression on immature minds like mine.